People like me... don't deserve this kind of sincerity.

I feel so shallow, so undeserving of such kindness and sincerity.. I can't and won't promise anything because I really really don't wish to lead anyone on. I am selfish because I have my reasons for not taking this chance at all, not even stopping to consider.

I wish this did not have to happen;because my reaction to this can either be entirely positive or just downright brutal, I don't want to be poison. 

Just got to get this off my chest. It's going to be awkward oh god :-(